Hard subject matter to write given how as the writer you know if will offend your biggest fans but it is a vampire dominance thing that you know goes on if you read enough fan fiction. William knows he does not belong with them and he has been defiled in their lifestyle so it is little wonder in his reaction to having Angelus speak Elizabeth's name. I think in this chapter is shows Spike becoming his own man and also the horrible side of a learning experience in the dark side he is now in and he can now say he has had enough because he will no longer allow himself to be under Angelus thumb nor take his abuse. In this we see Williams naivety in learning to kill and survive and although hiding shaping himself into the person / monster he will become sort of like a teen hiding things from it's parents.
The comment from Angelus was a direct strike on Williams manhood and meant to cut him down to size. I think more then anything Angelus was shocked as much as William that he would dare to strike out at him and it was just a means for Angelus to use it as a excuse to do to William what he always had in mind for him anyway's. It was very good for William to see Angelus is like everyone else and has weaknesses and can be taken down. I did get a gag response in reading this and sort of watching in horror at this happening to him but I kinda knew this was coming still it was hard to see this happen to a character I really love.
I think with this act of violence against his person he will no longer be willing to let himself be lead he will branch out on his own and that this is a turning point for him in learning how to fight or at least find out why Angelus is stronger or faster then him and for him to take it upon himself in finding out all he can on being a vampire and never allowing this to happen again.
I think this is a turning point for Spike and in this horrible act will the last thing of abuse he will take for anybody.


Author's Response: I know it was a difficult thing to read, Kalahara. It was definitely difficult for me to write. But I'm glad you see the reason behind the act. Vampires aren't teddy bears, and I don't want to shy away from that fact, but neither do I want to make the scenes gratuitous or overly graphic. Thanks for leaving me such detailed feedback, as usual. I hope you continue to enjoy the story in the future. :D

From this point on I can see William having his eyes open as to learning to fight and protect himself and looking for a way to get away from Angelus. Cause he now sees that Angelus had this in mind from the start and what a animal he really is.

Author's Response: In a way, all vampires are animals. I think this incident made William question just how much of an animal he wants or is willing to be. Thanks for the review! :)

William get out of there!

Author's Response: lol. Good advice! :D

This is good stuff. Really enjoying the dynamics between the characters here. Particularly your emphasis on how premeditated the act of dominance and control was. Says a lot about Angelus. Plus, we're seeing a nice, believable progression of William into the Spike that we all know.

Author's Response: Vampires are like animals and many male animals show their dominance by "mounting." Since Angelus has been the only male vamp in his "pack" for a long time, I thought it only made sense that he would attempt to show a newly-confident William just who was boss. I'm glad you liked it. Thanks! :)

I just finished reading the last two chapters that you posted and...wow.

Chapter 31 was perfect with William trying to make sense of his identity. And the way it was built up made it even better with Drusilla destroying his treasured book. And I'm loving the role that Angelus is playing in William's life. That was something I always wished we saw more on BtVS and Angel.

Now this chapter...I was actually waiting for the sexual scene between Angelus and William. Mainly because I had a sense that it was coming by the way you were writing the two of them (and also because of Spike mentioning being intimate that "one time" on an episode of Angel). I'm glad that you included it, and you definitely wrote the scene as realistic as it should be. Vampires always have had that sexual violence to them, and William and Angelus are not any different. In fact, they have it even more so.

And I love how William is still thinking of Elizabeth, and how it's still affecting his thoughts and actions.

I wish I could stress at how excellent this story is. I feel like I'm reading a historical vampire novel, except this time, all of my favorite characters are involved.

Wonderful, wonderful work.

Author's Response: So, you noticed the foreshadowing, did you? I was wondering if anyone would. ;) I've spent a huge portion of my time working with animals, and one thing I've notice about males of almost any mammalian species is that they mount each other as a show of dominance. Since BtVS showed us a certain correlation between vampires and animals, I thought it only fitting that this be a way Angelus attempt to dominate Spike. I'm glad you weren't too squicked out by it. :) I really appreciate your wonderful, detailed review. It's so nice to hear not only that a reader enjoyed the story, but also a breakdown of *why* they enjoyed it. You really made my day with this. Thank you. :)

Brilliant!! Please, I beg of you, update ASAP!!!!!!!!!!

Author's Response: I'm working on it.

So, after reading the first chapters on your journal I couldnt resist and came here to read all, Whn are you gonna update? Where the hell is Buffy? I am dyeing here pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Author's Response: lol. I'm so glad you like it. A belated thank you for your review. :)

The clinical nature of Archer's kill was chilling. William's amibivalence about Dru is an intriguing change from canon. His anger and sorrow over Elizabeth is nicely warped by his new nature, and I'm enjoying how she's coloring his experience as a vampire.

Author's Response: I'm glad you like it. Thank you. :)

I was waiting for Spike, I mean William, to come into the story. I am rushing off to read the next chapter.

Author's Response: I hope you liked it. :)

I am not sure how to review this cause its so differnt but at the same time goo so I'm just going to ask for more :)

Author's Response: Thanks so much. I'm glad you like it. :)

I read this and found myself thinking of Angelus and Spike on a couch and the phrase "Chilling like a villain" came to mind and I had to have a laugh over that. Intense and dark and well you didn't make it unbelievable in the killing scenes. I was scared and chilled but not grossed out. You show just enough and know when to stop and then turn around and show his William emotional side. I'm not sure I can say it enough how much I love this epic story.

Author's Response: lmao. "Chillin' like a villian." I like that. Thanks for the review. :)

I dont know if Iliked this or not (((giggles)))but book II has got me curious as to what he will do now with all this power and strength he has will he continue to destroy himself or will he throw himself fully into becoming a master vamp with his new disfunctional family. Thing is you should feel creeped out with what he does and I think you really have pulled this off in showing his need for revenge and this other force now inside of him.
Wicked good story!

Author's Response: lol. Well, when you figure out whether you like it, let me know. :P Seriously, though, I'm so glad to hear you're enjoying the story. Thanks so much for taking the time to tell me so. :)