I was gone and missed all the pointy things and I'm glad I did. I liked this chapter and know why she did it. She was kind of nuts to do that but I understand what she was trying to find out about her an
Spike. Looking forward to catching up on your new fic since I have been away

So Buffy is on a mission: Make Spike see her for what she was? What does she think she is? Not worth him? Ah, I see: Because she was a horrible person. Well what she did was definitely wrong, she, Buffy, was using Spike. In doing so she hurt herself. Didn't her mother see that Buffy had problems? Because: Warnings: Rape, Child Abuse. Looking forward to read what Spike will say to Buffy.

Great chapter. Boy is Buffy fucked up. She need to wake up and Spike loves her .

I think it's a good story.

Self- destruction-- been there, done that (well, not *exactly* that -- but you know what I mean). I just hope Buffy doesn't get what she's trying so hard to prove to Spike, that she is unworthy and that he doesn't really care. It was a hot scene, and it would be interesting to see Spike take the lead, and for Buffy to give just a little, so *he* can prove what he feels, and how he views her. Hang in there and don't let the negativity get you down. Looking forward to more.

awww how sad!!! i dont get why she keeps doing things to hurt both her and spike. i know that she thinks badly of herself but her and spike could be good together, i just wish she would see it. i love this story and am so happy u updated. i really hope that spike understands wat shes trying to do and doesnt think of her like she wants him to. please update as soon as u can, im dying to see wat happens next between them. thanx

I understand how someone can think so little of themselves to think that they don't deserve to be happy. It makes a weird kind of sense. But Spike has been trying to get her out of that line of thinking. He has been trying to help her. So I am mad at Buffy right now. Because even if she didn't know that his heart was in it, she knew that what she did would hurt his feelings. I have to wonder how they can recover from this. But hey, how much worse can it get? They are both mad at the other and hating themselves. Wondering what you are going to do now.

Wow, I didn't see that coming. It's exreme but it's bloody perfect, well done again lady. I agree with a couple of others who have reviewed, don't let what people say get to you. This is YOUR story, and in the Spuffy world messed up things are supposed to happen or we wouldn't have this wonderful site, right? Not all that is spuffy is meant to be fluffy folks. I think it's a refreshing change to have this Buffy, after all Spike can't be the bad guy ALL the time, so good on you and piss-off to anyone who doesn't like it, "if you don't like it, don't read it", thats what I do. Sorry I sound so harsh but I have complete respect for anyone who has the courage to post their work and hey, it's not like you get paid for it, it's a labor of love so I feel the need to protect any author who gets bashed. You can't please everyone all the time nor should you try. And btw, I understand this Buffy character perfectly you don't need to explain her, it's all there in black and white.
In messed up situations I remind myself of what my husband always says, "F*$k 'em if they can't take a joke". Update soon sweety I'm enjoying it and can't wait to see Buffy do some groveling for a change, woo hoo!!!

It's awesome, this's the first time I read your story and I like it so far. You're entertaining me so much. Thanks. I'll be waiting for your next updates eagerly.

AWWWWW i feel so bad for spike and buffy. please post the next chapter soon!!!!!!!! i love this story and i cant waite for more of it!!!!!!!!!!

That was really really sad, but so beautiful at the same time. Really enjoying this fic!

good updates i loved them

I think angst makes things more interesting!! Keep up the good work, am loving this story. Fluffy Spuffy just gets boring and we all know that as it's a Spuffy site, they're gonna end up together anyway in all the stories :-) Don't let some reviews get you down, this story is great.